i..
hmm.
i miss zhaojue.
i didnt have to talk there. and so i never ran out of energy.
with them, it wasnt about saying the right thing at the right time with the right wording in the right tone to maintain a good relationship.
i'm tired.
i feel.. almost every relationship in my life is falling apart. and i'm sitting here watching it all happen, exhausted, and completely clueless as to what i can do about it.
i learned what it meant to really serve others.
and how it's more rewarding than having others serve me.
i learned how it felt like to really love someone.
problem is that i havent learned how to express it.
hah, maybe i shoulda stayed longer.